Peaks and Valleys

[The Peak:] Last night was absolutely incredible. The Navigators hosted a bonfire/worship/prayer night out at Glen Eyrie, and my beautiful sister, Courtney came down to visit me with two of her friends. Worshiping God under the stars in the middle of his breathtaking creation is one of the most amazing experiences I've ever had. The prayer was powerful. The worship was phenomenal. And the fellowship was better than I could have asked for.

During the prayer times I was completely blown away. Hearing these 3 girls pray for each other, and their school, and the nations with such grace and authority was so encouraging. It was such an incredible blessing to see my sister and her friends so passionate and so on fire for God. I can't even describe it. Prayer is truly a powerful thing.

[The Valley:] The devil caught me off guard today, that's for sure. A lot of the emotions I'd been trying to hide from finally caught up with me, and I felt like the entire day was a huge downward spiral, which finally ended up in a major meltdown. I'm a crier...always have been, always will be. But I think it was when I was crying the hardest that God gently reminded me of 2 Corinthians 12:9-10:

"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."

For the past month I've been trying so hard to be strong. And most days I succeed. But today made me realize that no matter how hard I try I'm not strong yet. And I don't have to be. His power is made perfect in my weakness. And that's the most beautiful thing there is...grace :)

So, just like the past 48 hours of my life have so explicitly illustrated, some days are peaks and some days are valleys. But I've found perfect peace in knowing that no matter which kind of day I'm having, Jesus is right here beside me. I am weak, but he is strong :)