"Look where we are now!"

Today was perfect. This morning when I woke up, I really felt like God put it on my heart to go to Navs. I hadn't been to Navs at all this semester, partially because of care plans and having to get up at 5:30 the next morning, but also because I haven't really wanted to. For a long time, Navs has been the one place where my anxiety is at its absolute worst, and for a lot of reasons. So I was surprised when I actually wanted to go. I figured there was a reason God put it on my heart, and I just felt at peace with the idea of going. So I went. The difference was unbelievable. I didn't feel self-conscious. I didn't even feel anxious! During worship it occured to me that on a scale from 0-10 (ten being the worst), my anxiety was at a 0. I literally started to crack up. I couldn't contain it! I was giggling like a little girl, and my worship became that much sweeter. I knew that God had drawn me there tonight to show me just how much work He's done in my heart. It was almost as if He was saying, "Look where we are now!" All along I've known that God has been healing me, but it wasn't until tonight that I realized exactly how far He's brought me. I couldn't ask for better encouragement. I'm being set free! :) I just re-read my devotion from this morning, and it's funny how perfect it is: "Without watchful expectation on our part, what is the sense in waiting on God for help? There will be no help without it. If we ever fail to receive strength and protection from Him, it is because we have not been looking for it. Heavenly help is often offered yet goes right past us. We miss it because we are not standing in the tower, carefully watching the horizon for evidence of its approach, and then are unready to throw the gates of our heart open so it may enter. The person who has no expectations and therefore fails to be on the alert will receive little help. Watch for God in the events of your life. 'They who watch for the providence of God will never lack the providence of God to watch for.'" Like I said, perfect :) What a faithful God we serve!! I know I still have a long way to go, but it just goes to show that healing isn't necessarily a destination, it's a journey. And tonight I caught a glimpse of just how beautiful mine is. "I will stand at my watch and station myself on the ramparts; I will look to see what He will say to me." - Habakkuk 2:1