God Is Already There

"When he puts forth all his own, he goes ahead of them," -John 10:4

Recently I've found myself very anxious about the future. I'm about to begin my final semester of college, which means that finding a job and starting my career is only months away for me. Whenever I talk to someone who is about to start college or maybe is in their freshman or sophomore year, I'll typically ask them what they want to do when they graduate. So often the answer is, "I don't know," or "I haven't decided yet," which I believe is 100% okay. My response is always, "That's alright, you've got time."

Well, my time has pretty much run out.

Lucky for me, I bypassed the question of what I will do long ago. Now it's just a matter of where. I've spent the last few days searching for nursing jobs in Northern Colorado, emailing HR offices, and so on. Sure, there are jobs available. But 99.9% of them require x years of experience, which I most certainly do not have. That's the anxiety-inducing part.

So I find that my mind is flooded with questions like,

"What if you can't find a job in Fort Collins?"
"What if there are no new grad programs with spots available?"
"What if, by the time you graduate and are eligible to apply, there are no open positions?"
"What if Aaron can't find a job either?"
"How are you going to support yourselves?"
"Is Fort Collins really the right move?"
And so on.

Needless to say, it gets a little bit ridiculous. But I came across John 10:4 this morning and suddenly the future didn't seem so ominous.

"When he puts forth all his own, he goes ahead of them,"

I wholeheartedly believe that God did not call me into nursing and get me through school to leave me high and dry. I don't believe that God sets us up for failure. He has every second of my life planned out, and has since before I was even a thought. Maybe I won't find a job right away, maybe I will. Maybe I'll get to work in hospital right off the bat, maybe I won't. Either way, I'm part of a divine plan; and either way, God is in control. Regardless of what I'm doing 6 months from now, I believe with all my heart that I will be where He wants me to be, and that I will be able to serve and honor Him in that. He knows what will happen so that all I have to do is quiet myself and trust Him to guide me there. Whatever tomorrow or next week or next year brings, God is already there.

That's all the assurance I need :)

"Now God is out in front. He is in our tomorrows, and it is tomorrow that fills people with fear. Yet God is already there. All the tomorrows of our life have to pass through Him before they can get to us." - F.B. Meyer