Despicable Me

I just caught myself praying the most ridiculous prayer. It was more or less me telling God what's going on in my life and asking him to give me strength and to bless me in it. Almost immediately it was like I heard Him say,

"Wait a minute, Who's in charge here?"

All of a sudden the position of my heart was changed and it dropped to it's proverbial little knees. No wonder I've been so nervous and anxious all week--I've been trying to do this on my own and asking Him to come alongside me, when instead I should be looking to Him for direction. He is in control, and I'm more or less along for the ride. How do I manage to keep forgetting that? It feels like I've been re-learning this particular lesson on a near-weekly basis lately. Hopefully this time it'll stick.

Lord, thank you that your grace is enough to cover my sinful human pride. I'm sorry I keep trying to do this on my own strength. I can't. I need You. Please help me to always remember to ask You what You're doing, rather than assume I have it figured out. I trust that You are in control, and I surrender all that I am into Your gentle, creative hands. Make of me what You will. I love you, Jesus. Amen.